Man in White Dress

u have yourself. yourself your self you yououuuuuuoooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu u           uuuu u u u ONEEEEEEEEEEEE

FOOOOOOOOOOOOL I pitty the fool.  in a world of foools.  FOolish lovers.  Love fools fools too love.  dancing fool. happy fool.  Lighten up, your a fool.  understand the power of you fool.

What do you want?  What do you need to know?  Where are you?  Who are you?  What’s your purpose?  Are you here now?  are you stuck?  How do you get unstuck?  How do you make decisions?  How many times does it all repeat?   Does it matter?  The way you think is never the way everbody thinks.  There are no reall masters.  there is no real enlightenment.    You are in a vessel.  You are doing exactly what your suppose to .  You are a conscious way of life, playing its game.  You are creating everything.  No right or wrong but there is that flow.  the more your connected to it.  the better you’ll feel.  You either believe or you don’t believe. You are doing it.  You are on path.  That is the only way. Path.  we are all a bunch of fools.  finding our way.  fools of love.  foolish lovers.  fooooool love love fool.  AND I’M THE BIGGEST FOOL OF ALL FARRRRRRRRRRTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.  I gave myself wings.

What you want to do.  and then what you need to do. two different things. And the truth is our mind and bodies will be at ease if we can do just do what we need to do. And then maybe we could do what we want. Doing what we need is at the core.  of what we decide.  IN this moment.  we have a consistent core and we change according to where our core is.   this is fundamentals basics.  We knew it before we took spiritualism and science and mystery stories to the next level.  revolution is like getting excited.  Getting exhillirated.  With this simple thing.  That you have taken to the next level just by focusing on it.  For many it is just being thankful 4 who you are and being alive. which will always b enough.  and then this isn’t perfect too. Thank goodness nothing is perfect.  That is why we change and move on to the next thing.    Paradigm shifts don’t end.  To the next to the next and to the next.  You’ve heard your friend say.  I want to get healthy. I will b healthy.  And then say no man I just got to relax  and then do cigarettes, coffee, pot.  and say this is it.  You’ve seen people believe one thing all the way and then believe something else all the way.  life is A contradiction.  A hypocrite.   Someone or most people will believe at the moment.  At the moment now, we know that thats when thinking is relevent.  to the present moment.  Things are all right.  or great or fantastic or humble or at ease.  a general rule of thumb lighten up.  i have not to b so ideal give or take.  they say think big and win with what u get,  people who succeed, each one of them have there own way.  You can’t get rid of that.the way you choose is four you only.  ARe you going to push it?  Maybe, no, sometimes, always, never.  Does it matter?  no as long as you are consistent to you.  which means repeat certain things u want in life.  mark them down.  Come up with your own core. 3 ideas.  7ideas?   You have to do what your comfortable with.  What are you comfortable with good question.  Life is basic, it only becomes complicated when you put too much on your plate.  Only you can know your boundaries.  There are people. relationships that will sometimes screw with your mind.but at the core of everything.  Observe FEAR, do not become it.  ITS NOT TRUE, its part of your old lizard brain gone out of whack.

1.  So where do you start?  With the beginning of the day.  I woke up nervous, scared depressed.  Maybe not so severe though.  There was just tension.  It’s like a day you know you have a big test.  And your setting yourself up for it.  It’s been.  Almost two years.  since the last time.  Its different though.  I gained a lot from last time you don’t always feel these things but are made aware.  Upon contact.  Real reality experience.  Anxious is not a good way to start.  You see I had a plan and I didn’t follow through.  I wanted to get in shape for this.  I wanted to live the way monk lived. accept a special routine for the one day a week street performer.  I wanted to be prepared. It would of been a two month training.  I just finished a short film it was called Love Comes Out of Your Butt.  So the idea was to train and become in great physical shape.  And I did but not consistant enough.  And you know the energy you feel when things aren’t ideal, because of something you could of should of would of.  Which most people think thats terrible in the human language. I woke up late too.  I wanted to go to sleep around 10pm and wake up at 7am.  I went to sleep at 3:30am and wolk up 11:30am.  right but I’ve implanted a new part of me.  A part of me that knows if I stayed home miserable.  I would of been really miserable and depressed all day.  So my bodies not in ideal shape for the performance.  So I went.  I took a ice coffee from the same company that makes that pomegrantant juic POM.  I went outside.  It was super warm.  I knew I would of been a fool if I didn’t go.  Warm cool days promotes happy people and love. 

So I drove the car.  and it still feels strong with in the resistance. to not go and just stay home and relax in the heater, positive ion facility. taking energy from you.  instead of giving.  but as you get closer to your destination you feel warmer.  you feel what you are going to do. even though its not real until you finally do it.  I liked the radio flipping the songs seeing if any of it is giving me a message. the big mirror.  that answers you.  the more aware you are.  I’ve triggered in my head that the no. 7, right triangles and hearts are all possitive signs. and then messages.  Around FDR the 130th st. exit near the triboro bridge and so on.  I’m into the tri-force too.  whatever that means.  I saw a lot of structural rectangles.  which I would of seen no matter what.  but near that exit is a performance artist of some sort.  His name is Otis Houston Jr.  He poses, designs the area with NYC treasures, or what some people call junk.  He writes messages of art.  Could they be  cryptic for something higher then myself.  MY opinion is that its all cryptic for something higher then me always. What ever that is.  I’d like to call it love because it simplifies my complex mind.  I mean I guess you can call it infinite.  Any way Otis Houston wasn’t there but he always leaves his messages.  I read Rite MAn, Rite JOB.     and that was enough.  I asked the MIrror.  and I was looking and it gave. 

I believe in this Big mirror thing because.  It also simplifies.  What ever you ask, want, focus on.  it gives never in the form you expected.  But it’s always communicating to you in small levels and higher levels.  And whatever you think.  to0oo late it’s already in outerspace.  It knows.  There is something that always knows.  even within us.  and it wants to tell you .  reading peoples minds is not so far fetched or seeing the future. or something strange like that.  There is a science as well as a mystical thing.  Because as much as we can explain everything.  it’s impossible and thank goodness for that.  Life will always be free.  Even if we don’t feel free or not.

I believe in this giant mirror.  So my mantra was love is the higher power. Without a doubt.  Believe in this.  Love the higher power.  Which meant to me, all my thoughts of fear, was not a form of love and will slowly go away.  All the things I relate to that may be negative.  sad, depresstion fear, when fear when I do this.  People will mock me and I will be lonely.  But  that’s never the case.  Fears have a way of shaping our worlds if we let them.  Basic knowledge, you know something positive exists, and something negative exists. you are conditioning yourself always or sometimes just nothing. which is inner peace.  But NO MATTER WHERE YOUR HEAD GOES TO KNOW THAT THERE IS A HIGHER POWER THAT IS IN THE DIRECTION of SOMETHING GREATER then JUST ME that the world is not just me and my dreams and visions.  That there is a force here that, really knows more then you know but not in language and its leading you towards something always in a mystery because its creating itself at this moment as well, thats what I believe.  Perhaps energy.  and this power has no opposites and doesn’t judge and loves you or me or anybody else just the same.  even if I knew the power loves President bush.  I feel happier, more enlightened.  because we don’t have to be over burning ourself. It wants to help and if we’re patient it will always help you. 

the original plan was to take the bus to port authority.  and gain access to a locker, I’d pay 10 dollars for the day.  But since I took the car I drove to Williamsburg, Brooklyn.  The place where I parked when I did it two years ago. The Bedford Circus of Fools, I did it with my good friends Marissa Mickelberg., Lyssette Horne, Sarah Mayti, Marrisa Riojadi. Joahnne Heish.  anne.  I decided to park here because they have a bathroom at the Oslo Coffee house.  walked in walked out.  Started to put on my gear.  I felt tension in my head, but I knew it wasn’t real.  When you know there is a higher POWER.  you know that the fear is just your head. its good rule of thumb just call the higher power love.  simplify.   whether it be 3 4 or 5 or 7 or love or right triangles.  simplify so you can tap into the LOVE IN THE AIR. 

SO on repeat I SAID TO MYSELF, Love  Love love love,  The higher power.  Love love so even if this person doesn’t  believe it  it is the higher power.  Love love love the higher power.  I had my full attire on.  I white wedding dress. with.  a silver heart shiny reflecting things.  A wedding halo. and a red feather.  I carry around  on a wood piece a silver heart bordered gold. the no. 7 and a right triangle with an eye.  Seven the right Eye triangle and love.  what does it mean?  Connections we all love them.  Love loves connections.    

So I skipped down the street.  all the way to the 7North and Driggs St.  subway stop.  and I was laughing.  And people were laughing too.   so success.  I was able to give myself laughter.  by laughing by me smiling people all day went with my energy.  It didn’t matter that I felt like poop this morning.  Which was a good thing.  It means to me that.  the mirror knew my intentions today it knew or that no matter what Love is the highest power. You know what life bounces back and forth.  Love and hate.  But I believe love stays longer.  through irritable people and hateful people, its hugging us all. life is not cruel. Humans are apart of life and they can be cruel sometims. But the power as a whole is not cruel.

If your doing your best its doing its best.  it is a mirror to your point of creation now.  so if you believe at this moment you are doing your best.  It believes you.  It loves you sooo much it believes anything you believe.

I went into the subway stop.  Outside the stairs two people kissing.  romantically.  they saw me surprised.  I said “Loves the higher power”.  Down the stairs and I felt good.  Looking for signs.  the mirror is giving me what I focus on.  and what I want.  1 min. later the guy from upstairs asked me while I’m waiting on the train if he could take a picture.  No problem.  I use the picture thing as a way of meeting people.  connecting.  Everybody loves a picture.  Pictures, smiles, kisses, all signs of love.  2 minutes later a guy tells me I look beautiful.  compliment.  He’s a musician.  friendly. beautiful music is being played by a musciian.        the train comes.  we say good bye with a smile. IN the train. I observe facial reactions I feel there energy.  A look of confusion but then to me it felt positive afterwards.  Confusion and then positive. and then fast acceptance.  because THIS IS NY not nj.  There was love even in the subway.  Probably its because its sunday.  the seventh day of rest for some.  For jews it saturday.  But people can be active for 5 days of work.  1 day with the people you love.  and one day if you can for yourself.  For whatever floats your boat.  I guess that day is Sunday for me.  So I took the L train to the 6 train to up town.  42 street.  2 years ago it was Bedford Ave.  in Brooklyn.  Now it’s Time Square NY.  ha ha I’m moving up.  I guess life is a growth.  I had to walk a few blocks to the west.  But I felt it.  joy in my heart.  It felt as if I was some wacky character in ny and my presence had a purpose..  I skipped my way to time square.  I felt myself.  I know I want this.  and its strange its hard to tell people what you do because if you do, your at this game, whether your trying to prove yourself to this person or not.  and when I do it when I perform or whatever it is.  It’s for myself.  but for everyone else.   Life is a hypocrite in a good way.  theres no way to not be a hypocrite.  maybe part of that is because people aren’t patient or not.    

Anyway skipping works and subtle movements.   Inner child movements.  For adults its the kind of movenments that if your in the wrong place.  You might be judged by the worst of them.  JUDGEMENT.  what a horrible word.  sometimes.  I was mantaining this joyous flow bubble as best as I can.  and for me this is important.  What if someone punched me in the face.  It happened to me before.  So this is adventure this is the edge.   But for myself and that is why I write.   for myself.   am I writing for an empty boat?  toot.  toot.  The boat is never empty where ever you go there you are.   So I made it to TIME Square.   and Oh man it was positive.  You see I already did pre- work.  I studied the area.  And the city is smart.  All along broadway 6 and 7.  there are inner city islands where you feel like your walking along traffic a wierd connection between human and machine.   but it works and it feels cool.  the place I originally wantted to perform was where 7th AVe.  and broadway cross over.  it made sense to my signs and sym bols there at the intersection.  Was a ice sculpture heart leftover from the 14th valentines day,  the number 7 and a right triangle.  And I love to be consistant.  which is the way I am.   I was right it was perfect.  People were digging it.  Everytime pictures are taking.  That’s an easy sign that this person is c omfortable with my presence.  I got closer  to them .  And I did ballet type dancing. And at this Right triangle is a noice.  There is a beautiful nosie that never ends or begins.  it just hums.   it comes from the subway maybe but its at this right triangle.  where the 7th and Broadway crosses. A lot of things happened at once. 

1.  A recurring theme.  People asked did you just get married?  My answer:  I married myself.  I’m here to help people marry themselves and that works.  People giggle smile and laugh.   When I marry them I usually do some wacky performance that makes them laugh hysterical.  People love dancing with the crazy man.

2.  Pictures always work.   If they take pictures I come closer.  I ask them questions.  They take me.  I want to learn.  spiritual knowledge maybe.  A smile.  maybe.  something positive.

Things I recieved today its not a big list but I did recieve.

1.  Smiles, laughter 

2.  One dollar bill

3.  A pretzel

4. a package Scooby doo fruit flavored snacks

5.  People dancing with me.

6.  A bumper sticker that says “Stop Bitching Start a revolution”.  

7.  And small children where the inner light is still strong.  Laugh at me.

That seven I”m happy.\

Anyway I stuck my silver heart in the thing that makes the beautiful humming noise.  and did my dancing around in circle thing.  and of course.  Three kids started doing the same thing.  like birds we were singing  We caused just enough havic that the police came in and cornered me.  the kids walked away, aware of the cops.   I was aware.  I knew that  most of the time they are friendly and smooth in approach.  I forgot to pack my license in my fanny pack.  I forget to tell you I swas wearing one. but it wasn’t there and I don’t think it mattered.  because official men are burned out from there higher power. or not . but they said go and with a smile I said ok.  and they smiled too.  soooooo as perfect as this right triangle and the 7 and the heart was.  I’m not allowed to be there for now.  but the time square I slands go down as far south as 33 streeet and thats still a good no.  and I accepted.  I said yes because I cannnot defy the higher power.  The cops are part of the higher power, but I still have to remmeber so am I and yes so are my worst enemies.  Which aren’t enemies.  sometimes.  OPEN is  a key word AND SOMETIMES.     

SO at 33 street are two right triangles  of islands.  gathered with elmos, mikeys, and mineys.  and a dancing group.    On 6 ave.   and before I made it to Time Square When I was on the Subway.  I saw someone with a jacket on that said 6 ave.  at the 7.  It was significant to me and nobody else.    6 is the new 7 maybe ha ha.   it works for meeeeeeeee…    radical ideas area always breaking your norms.  The question I was asking the big mirror.  or focus Where Can I find a spot that is perfect for the Man In the White Dress.  and it worked.  Only one police man who told me move it along when too many people were having fun with my character.  YOU know I wish I could take a survey. while I do this.  because I could be more logical.        Its hard to just go by memory I like to be specific.  Maybe if had a crew.   Don’t most of us want a crew working for our way of thinking.  Our changes, supporting us.  You ‘ll never completely get that. unless you can offer a good salary maybe. So I stayed at 33 street.  with the two right triangles.  and I recieved most of the seven there.  on top.  I came to Time Square around 3pm and I was gone around 6pm walking to nostalgia.  Union squrare and Bedford ave.  in Brooklyn.  I’m listening to the beatles rightnow The fool on the hill.  I love that song even if that is PAul.  probably for obvious reasons. 

1.  walking  or running in circles works.  

2.  Problems I had, I wasn’t in shape.  My right knee started hurting me. Its probably a possitive thing in disguise.  It tells me to be more aware of my physical power.  it tells me that I don’t have to put out as much energy to make people laugh or smile or dance. or spin.  but I STILL want to be in good shape.    I had my taste of life, so this week I will try my best.  My goood older sister says its just a matter of some excercises.  I want this to work for me.  I hate when I get wrapped tooo far in ideas of my own success.  but when my succes links with the higher power.  I’m happy.  and how can it not if it if you are always connected.  I have to support my right knmeeeeeeee.   or left knee or right elbow or just everything.  EVeryting in general.  B ut as best.  and remmeber u are at your best when you believe you are.  Life is you your thing .  So as the beatles say LOve love love.  

3.  At union square.  I was greeted by somebody who was bored with me.  I accepted.  I met an angel.  he told me his version of love.  He said there is really just you and the higher power.  him  upstairs.  and then people who cast dark magic and fart in your face.  He said most people.  Fortunately this Sunday I didn’t feel that.  I think you have to believe in what you want and you get it.  depending wher you are.  You are where you afre and where you decide.  and the more you want to be somewhere you will b e there it5 seems like magic when it happens sooooooooo maybe it is.   I was in a long conversation with angel. It was like a great ending to a beautiful day.  He was telling me exactly what I wanted to here.  Ohter people who are in the pursuit of love and giving love.  and the obstacle that we all face. Negative people.  which are tricky when they are your friends because they are possitive too. It’s hard  relationships. a comprise behond right and wrong both.  LOVE NO OPPOSitEs.   When love is hardest.  Relationships make it harder.   a very important infrastructure.     

4.   An gel invited me to coffee in whole foods and I rejected.  because I was a little nervous.  A relationship forms when or just  by being in the prescense of another person.  bey0ond intellect and talk.  silence the simple connection.  wooody allen. says 90 percent is just being there.  u are ther with others  but with who.  Your co workers who you love or dislike.   Relationships add that connection thing.  that the other might feel or give you shame.   the one thing I’m scared of. shame.  I don’t want people to feel this but if I don’t giv e them what they want.  I diddn’t want to get hooked with this guy even though he was very loving and sweet.  he was beautiful.  He was giving me a trick to bounce off negative energy.  Anyway I made a choice not ot have coffee with him at whole foodds.

5.  I told him bedford ave.  where I had to meet friends.  So I went there and I saw  Stella Michael and an Old Polish woman. who’s name I don’t remember.  but after 2 years they still remmebered who I am .  It doesn’t feel like 2 years.  it feels like yesterday.    I ended up reconnecting with them . and I ended up helpin the old polish woman who lives on Bedford aVe.   she sells stuff on the street and she wanted my help I offered her right knee was bad.  Ha ha just like mine.  So many connections.  She remembers me from two years ago.  like yesterday.  thank goodness two years doesn’t esxist.  You are always where you left off.  or not but that only matters if you think in time.  while helping the old polish woman.  An gel appeared, and you know he was happy.  So I was happy.  like spirits we appear and dissappear all of us to ea chother.

Overall a positive experience ending wiht the beatles on BEDFORD AVE. in brooklyn.   until next week.  6 is the new 7.

disconnection and connection.  I guess the higher power is connection, because we are always connected.  Disconnection swims around in connection as an illusion.  Be on the plane that universe will help you out and when asked. But you always have to do the research to find what you think is the best way.  and remember that their will always be more then one and so deadlines are important.  That’s why I go today March 7 It’s a day I built up inside of me.  So after this performance I will write out the whole day.  See what happens kind of a thing.

it wants to teach and learn toooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

Most my life I’ve allowed myself to be created by the movie.  Setup, a problem arises and then change. Win win win.  LiFE the movie in where you win or lose.  Most of us are stuck with one way or the other way.  It’s hard to avoid.  It’s a game we’ve been playing all our life. A habit.  Your winner or loser.  For some people.  they still get motivated by these labels.  But then they’re not a big deal.  Some people already know to be light with words.  Don’t take everything everybody says to the point.  This is my mistake.  or my positive advantage.  I take everything word for word.  I get things done.  The more I’m in the process the more I know what to take more seriously or not seriously.  How do you get into the process?  The clues are given to you all the time.  By what you like.  By what you need to balance your center.  Your core is the most important to you.  to most people if not.  People will act 2 you how you treat yourself.  And then it seems a lot of people aren’t even aware of other people.    Aren’t there certain times when your not even aware of anybody except yourself and your muddle of thoughts.  Your jolly dance of thoughts.  thoughts should be seen as clouds.  all of them.  What ever has to get done will get done.  If you trust the process.  Why don’t people trust the process?  Because the first, second or third time made me discouraged.  Am I discouraged.  Oh man, to analyze, and organize.  That’s what you get and probably its easier to think when things seem organized.  A lot of time I find my head reaching for something beyond me.  when I do that the brain gets confused or nervous.  Everything I want to find within.  Because thats how I’m doing. it.  So to morrow March 7 I’m going to do street performing again.  It’s been awhile.  I’m nervous and I feel like a fool.  A fool alone in the street. who wants to give love.  I will do my best.  The light can tell your best.  there was always something out there protecting me.  I felt that.  I felt a higher power. or it’s nothing i really feel.  I know.  most of us in our normal state.  Trust and flow.  I know.  Because I set myself up for a plan.  I want to work out.  and watch observe take readjust .    Wake ups and restarts.  Eventually we will all get it right.  and then when we all do. It’ll probably be the same as before.

1.  It’s there to feel

2.  It’s important.

3.  The light you.

4.  All relationships are important.

You and the light

The one

You 

Light.

The right triangle.  there is you. there is other. and then there is both.

Three points of connection always.  YOU  the MIRROR and the BOTH  

1.  You - just you.   what you create.

2.  Mirror - everything  what you see.

3.  Both -the higher power?  HIGHER POWER  what you become.

A. There is only one sacred mirror. But as many mirrors you want to see.

B.  ONE POINT IN TIME IS CHOSEN BY YOU.  to feeeel.  One point is where you want to feel the most energy fashizleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

1.  I will fly 

2. I read minds.

3. I can walk backwards for years.

4.  I’m a doctor

5.  I’m an elevator

6.  I have super powers

7.  I know the elements.

1. light

2. reflection

3. inner peace

4. love

5.  life

6.  process

7.  gifts

1. nice

2. sad

3. pardon

4. doctor

5. exciting

6. mild

7. wacky

1.  chicken

2.  cheese

3.  noodle

4.  dolphin

5. cup

6.  octupus

7.  eyeballs

1. didn’t began

                             A.  It was always here

2. didn’t end

3.  patterns = repeat

4. give=recieve

5. like=like if you love it, it will love you to.  Love is its higher power. There is always something hugging you reminding you of love

6.  The system HAS FLAWS

7.  Ideas are stepping stones ONE the power of this. Point in time..

1.  NO OPPOSITES

2. PATTERNS 

3. LIKE ATTRACT LIKE

4. FEEDBACK give AND receive Action= the reaction. One after another 

5.  NEVER END

6.  NEVER BEGAN

7.  CONNECTIONS

HUman consciousness.  Your here for the reasons.  and ideas and feelings.  You are using your system.  You are always connected.  Give it focus on the things. LOVE or SOFT or SIMPLE or PEACE.  really go……….   program your mind.  you have access to relief. You deserve it. Ask why wouldn’t it?  Inside you have the controls. Elements,  7.  You have 7 parts. that connect and give ONE MIND.   YOOOU are ONE. start there one.  there is a mirror you see two. Stay at two.  and then go back to one. You’ll do it anyway.  

1.  Start with seven.

2.  Pick out 7 opposites.

3.  Connect the opposites.  and believe you can make them into one again.

Ok first Seven

A. ONE mind

B.  TWo Doctor

C. Three Periscopes

D. Four Eyeballs

E. Five Noses

F. Six DOMAINs

G Seven GOLDENs

NOW I COnnect them with opposites and make one.

A. ONE mind  F. Six DOMAINs

- Access granted

B.  TWo Doctor  G Seven GOLDENs

-The two doctors know they want more

C. Three Periscopes  E. Five Noses

- Undersea is better for the nostrils

D. Four Eyeballs  D. Four Eyeballs

- Seeing is believing

E. Five Noses  C. Three Periscopes

- I want more nose breathing and seeing

F. Six DOMAINs  B.  TWo Doctor

-Access denied

G Seven GOLDENsA. ONE mind

-Seven Golden Rules will give you access to one mind.

Rules

1.  No one has control of it

2.  It likes patterns, it likes to repeat.

3.  It loves to make connections.

4.  You are navigated by yourself.

5.  It will talk to you 

6.  It never began and never ended.

7.  This means it was always this process of giving and receiving.  So nobody really gets credit for recieving or giving.    So the truth is you can’t blame anybody.  You can praise anybody.  And its not you, its everybody.  We have egos for reasons.  Is our ego one end of the mirror.  Our we lower self. and can only see higher self in mirror. Can we be seeing always our higher self.  Self-realization this has always been true. Self acceptance has always been true.  If everything is meant to be.  feel adapt design adapt feel.  Live on this level.  On this level you will feel it the most.  Only one dimension exists.  All the other dimensions.  is the mind.

Life is already flowing. Attach to flow charts.  Love is a lready here. no need to save everybody in the name of love.    it’s already here.  even in positive ion screens.  sorry they suck.  but Love has no opposites.  Or perhaps it does.  and love is not what it seems.  Of course that’s true because now its just verbal discourse.  and this stuff can go on forever.  Better to attach what you know inside.  Note ideas will always seem to compete with eachother.  when they start doing that, its a good point to step back and observe.   you know something is here beyond you.  and it its here.  you are in communication with it always.  it’s not an idea though. but you are communicating.  I try to find it out in my head.  too much thinking stress fear.  and you haven’t found it.  but you are aware its still around you.  and its not fundamentally good but it brings forth what you attract.  Focus on attracting what feels in harmony your life will probably be better if you know how to take one thing in at a time.

Through out time and patience.  I was able to grow an ant form.  Why?  I was curious I guess.    How many things are you growing.  Be aware of it all.  Be aware of the seeds you grow.  Each one very spiritual.  Like every person you meet.  Knowing that this is a being with the some problem as you.  No problem just you.  another thinking human being.  Each of us emotional own creation .  you see and then you create and then you change see create.

How easy it is.  when everybody is doing it to.  Imagine a world of Team players finally teaching eachother how to be enlightened. And it starts working.  teaching other how to be humble relaxed.  Really teaching by showing by action.  This is the only way by action.  Not by talk all the way.  Talk is action but not gossip, or stating what you believe in.  Both together.  or more.  All ideas are points in our mind.  you are connecting these points.  They will align when you know your foundation.  Of course you know that you are creating whats most important to you.  This will Help you when dealing with others.  who deep down inside are really you.  but you must be able to still be yourself and not get sucked into the other.  It can be too easy sometimes.  For the Woman or man.  All in different Moments of time One is observing the other.  Time is different for each Universe, Planet, Person.  It’s important to be aware as the higher power not as identity or a higher power.  Let the higher power be the things you can’t control.  The things you don’t know about.  You know that something is going on inside your head.  and you know there is something going outside your head you can’t touch.  You will never touch.  The world will be always left a mystery.  Something you can only figure out what you have decided to and whats being put in front of you.  Two forces.  You and OUTSIDE.  Out side you’ll be always connected to. You are always connect to outside.  You are always connected to something bigger then you.  Is something to remember.  There will be a higher power of things. always.  to name it.  can only be helpful if you know what you want from it.  At a very basic level. 

You ask, it gives,  not as separate individuals, but as everybody connected to the samething.  You have to know with each exchange you are helping it and it is helping you.  always.  the power with no opposites.  What ever that can be in your mind.  You want to be connected to a power that has no opposites.  Imagine that in your mind.  It divides it almost in two.    Because you could never imagines something that never changes.  But there exists something that never changes always remains them same.  the only way to grasp it is feeling that.      SOMETHING THAT NEVER CHANGES WILL ALWAYS EXIST.  that is the ______ _________

floating like a cloud in lizard greens candy chewy.  Greeny.  tangy.  What if I gave you seven of them!!  FOR YOUR SEVEN CHILDREN!!!! OR SEVEN SINS!!!!!!  

Sin 1 = potatoe

Sin 2 = Dolly Parton

Sin 3 = Monkey Monkey

Sin 4 = Elvis Presely

Sin 5 = The MOON

Sin 6 = A TIN can

SIN 7 = HEAVEN HEAVEN

What am I doing.  What am I really doing?  What do I want to do?  Tiny small big huge Everything.    NOTHING.     GIVE me THE FULL POWER OF NOTHING!!!!!!  ok, here it is.  I divided it equally.  Each one has a goal made out of chocolate.

wooble wobbles wooble wobble.

Do you like your self?  The answer is YES I love my self.  a pound everyday.  10pounds.  Moaning growning.  into my mind I am floating love life.  Life is ok.  ok to be alive life in its quick fixes and changes, raveling growing through mind and without mind.  Here away and born again an idea that flies away with itself and believes in all it says.

here in mellow pie. we little lads.  Togheter  in basket nest.  fleeing floating away.  With out sense or meaning understanding.  Back to inner space. and no understanding.  beautiful winds of mother nature come back.  Sad wind blue water ocean life.  walking with flowing wind. Surfing floating wind blue beautiful blue.  Let go blue wild cold air.  Open.

does that mean I’m going somewhere.  the answer is “yes. I’m nervous.”  Love love love toot toot toot.

it’s out of tune. but it PLAYS REALLY LOUD ON MEGA DEGA SPEAKERS.

One mind is a writer.  One mind is a wanderer.  One mind is Performer.  One mind is a Filmmaker.  One mind is a telescope.  One mind is a Nut case of OMEGA.  Profound statements through history and time.  That’s what this is about.  Your moment in your subconscious is also your part in the conscious No doesn’t make sense doesn’t really want to just wants to surf. flow.  Surf relief.  From suffering.  What I really want is relief from mind suffering.   How do I ask???????  How do you stop the mind from suffering.  sabotages.  You put your energy in the mind.  You feel it totally but then you learn to fee the rest of the body.  Learn to learn the body mind soul heart connection.  This is probably the most important thing you can do before you die.  So people say.  So the opinions are raveling so ideas are opening.  Ideas don’t stop opening.  they never will, but you get to pick.  Ideas are allowed to come mind and then outside.  Mind anything.  OUtside Anything controlled by another source that you have to remember that your connected to.  That there is another source, but everything is connected to it, including you.  I’m connected to it.  the higher power.   the medium power.  the sideways maybe.  the upside down.

How can you learn the ways?  Is that your order to the universe?!!!  By learning the ways.  These are the ways your learning.  Learn foundations repeat and drink water.  REapply on face weekly.  Be yourself take naps.  smile.  Let be.  One thing at a time.  Stay ………………………….

this moment lends its hand in doing that. BElieve in Wake UP.  It here ASK Where can I feel wake up?  ALL OF A SUDDEN BIRDS !!!!!!!!!! EVERYWHERE!!!!!!  TRAIN HORN GETTING LOUDER!!!!!!!! CARS EVERYWHERE!!!!! and you know where the story goes.  everywehre.

not on my watch.  I want it all from the enlighten toilet.  The one that showed us the way and said stop hunting outside.  Look inside that counts. it is what it is it am what it am.  and it can fly. Right it does fly.  gliding high. like wind creatures.  Liddle Teddy. he’s a cutey.  swimming with the wind understanding whats in a mind because you got to understand yours you ask for it.  it comes.  Understand that basic function.  Its a way to use the two opposites.  Ask it question you get an answer.  question answer question answer question answer.  What’s inside my brain?  Jolly balls of potential!!!! I have to work with what I have RULE  777A:-))))   I chose it too.  **Work with what you chooses RULE 777B:)))  this is basic functioning.  You are learning and creating your basic function.  So start writing in the way. you see fit. Because its going to be a wacky rides.  and if your not there to watch, then Your mind is……  then your soul is……..  then your heart is………………….

but that is a mistake, it is not all the mind.  it is also.  the body.  and the two feet diameter away.  its like outer space.  INside your body.   learn to feel infinity learn to feel outerspace.  NOTHING Noooo thinnnngggggg period.  Just learn to feel.  We don’t have to think everything.  There are things we can trust. think of a flower.  imaginate growing all over your body.   wow.  Fast motion.

From what words do your mind speak.  Chinese.  Interesing, well welcome this fresh language from the hut into our lives.

This is your dream.  that should crack an egg shell.  that should be enough.  train.  toot toot.

I think I’m gone.  I’m gone again.  I thought I had a connect. but now I don’t but then it comes back and then I do .  SEE what’s happening.  Be in to  it.

a house of collections and productions and mind control.  You dreams are coming true I’m losing my connecting power.  time to go to sleep.

adjust your time focus point.  it is here like lobster adjustment.  It is your point of reference.  You know this because.  You aren’t judging you are trying your best you don’t take anything personally.  You are conneected.   connected again Are we trying to get connected.  What are all the rules of connection.    where do you start?  Through connection.  You see your life through connection.  organize connection.  Or ganize you r head space like you clean your room.  Room cleaning.  Not henry.

how bout now how bout now how about anytime on any thing you wanted to be this mind has thought over and now wants answers for his answers sand for more answers.  Now I will organise my answers.  I will research ask more questions and then find more answers and then organize my answers to points. that will help me remember.  as soon as I connect the dots.  through out time that doesn’t exist.  YOu m ind is on now it is off. on off on off on.

Where do I fail or where do I succeed.  Where do you succeed.  what are you recieiving.  Are you recieveing what you want.  simple.  measurements to what is now.  you working on your work.  You are you know you are your working on it and its real, real as anything else is realer. though realer.

take her time going take your time going to floating new story heaven. relax lauren K. see now later born again yeah right. ritual or spiritual or now. now is this time thing not really.

What is that?  I don’ know I don ‘t know I don’t know.

1.  Miwd LOOKS in mirror.

2.  Sees reflection smiles

3.  looks for fifiteen seconds.

4.  Blinks eyes.

5.  falls back because of explosion.

everybody wants a story.  A story is true to the heart it connects.  You are the beginning of a story.  This is the first time to be aware of what is going?  on .   What ?  what ? what?

Don’t judge don’t bite.  here what words you say.  listen to your voice feel your mood.  gooo with better.  you can always do better.  go t o best.  believe in best.  What is best?  you know don ‘t you.  I have to admit it’s getting better.  It’s always been getting better.  I know this because.   I’m not angry anymore.  I accept.  why not.  You can’t deny love.  I accept it.  It’s here. and always here. even though I thought nothing non -existent separate.  There is always something to lighten you up when you look for it and when it happens.  it happens more when you look for the answers.  you get more answers and you ask more questions.  You find out your system. you decide never to ask questions again. because your sick of questions and find thats ok to.  and then you lighten up on your decision making sometimes.  You  give a feel.  you know when you fell over whelmed. you remember you caN ONLY go one way.  and one way you will go.  the other way doesn’t exist. speculation ideas about it exist.      these are the things that connect this GIANT MIRRROR.

Evolution is mine and mine is evolution life is a dream Life is a real thing ?????  ??? do I know ?   what is it?  what are????  You ? my mother?? my sister.  Time in time out again and now never.

What boundaries?  ARE they here?  where are they?  Are there boundaries?  Same way as asking if they’re any rules.  Are there any?  What are they?  Now You start to realize everybody has there own rules.  and what they are is…  Let it in to know where your at.  You know where you want to be at .   but let it know where you feel good.  Let it know.  It wants to talk to you.  a day by day process.  you have nothing to be sorry about .  You are trying your best and I am trying my best.  Can I try better. the answer is yes sometimes.  Now Yes I will try better or know.  What count can I know.  The answer is you know where you want to go all the time.  simplify what you want to points.  You see the mind only thinks in points.  no just one point.  That’s why it’s good to point it out, numbewr it.  tuttuif fruity it.  It’s up to you what ever floats your boat.  nothing specail toot toot.  But special.  Now you can clapp your hands over and over and over.  Never begginning never ending it repeats.  I want to stop or I don’t want to stop.  I am mysefl when I know myself.  Do I know myself.  I know myself I know myself I know myself.

You want simple. First thought simple.  You start with the first idea. Ok what is the first idea?  simple I know, it’s an alligator.  crawling around a duck pond.  there are turkeys swimming and some vegetarians eating at a picnic table.    That’s enough now explore your idea.  Well is the alligator going to eat the turkeys.  that would seem like an obvious choice.  But I say no because there is an invisible wall.  Lock a block in a brain.  Do the vegetarians have any point?  What are they doing?  They’re eating really loud.  It’s definitely bugging the alligator.  So yes the alligator eats the vegetarians.  It’s seems like the natural ebb and flow of things.   And then I will make the alligator fart.  Because healthy food makes meat eaters fart hard.  So the alligator is farting hard.  We now have an awareness of hard farting.  It’s a daily process. It happens everyday. HArd farting.So the answer to this story.

This is how you start something.  Now it is your job to find out what your discovering.

1.  Turkeys swimming in a duck pond.

Turkeys are woddling dramatically in pound.  very loud splashes.

a. find cut of turkeys on int.

b. youtube footage of real pond.

b. Make two movement.

2.  Alligator crawling around duck pond.  smudging around invisble wall.

dolly back. see alligator crawling around.  

3.  Vegeterians eating real loudly.

pan right and see vegeterians eating. loudly zoom in. slowly gradually to mouths.

4.  Aligator eat vegeterians.

close up of eyes. med shot body dolly back, crawls forward.  Scared look of both vege’s.  HA back shot of the alligator eating them. some close ups.

5.  Alligator farts real loudly. end 

blast see the real butt of the alligator shooting out a blast of smoke.

Now I can look at this even more. By repeating.  Interesting it’s just repeating.

I’d like to do this with paper or pictures I find off of google YES.  Easy Quick fast.  Keep Ideas flowing and always try your best.  Keep ideas flowing.  tired of one move forward or back and back later. everything repeats at own speed.

NOthing special.  but as special as you make it.  You are allowed to see it as light or see it as darkness.  but always know that light rests in darkness.  use that to remind you.  that in order to have one you need the bigger other.  The bigger other is the one with no opposites.  No opposites. no opposites.  You are living in a land of opposites.  It’s possible for everyone to be right.  everybody is right. I’m right.  but divide right.  right is just right .  Your right.  well so are you.  How does it feel to be right?  No different then being wrong?   How does it feel to be wrong?  You are right you are wrong you are confused.  Find your true center.  develop it. within.  You are still effected by others.  anything you bring and anything that comes in and then the after. and then no sorry just now.  simplified.

this is human intelligence beyond idea thought intelligence.  You observe we find out we’re all working with something beyond our minds.  it is the tool. for you that is alive that has something else that is thinking with your and beyond you but is all one point that we all connect to. one point that only exists as one.  Could it be?  That everything comes from one point?  Does one point exist?  It exists in my mind as one point.  my conscious is one point.  My life is one point.  throught this I decide and see.  I have to remind my self wha t I can control.  What people say your in charge with.  Is true to a point ONE point.  To believe in this one point because this is your one point.  No that ONE thing is everything.  and everything is one thing.  note the seperation and the connection.  It is both.  Like as basic as me. and this computer that shows the words that I type.  one letter at a time.  Note that there is a focal point always.  note that we are designing life through this hole this point. this is moment.  This thing this is…..  Tired of is???  Call it something else.  Create your own terminology. but don’t become radical about ideas.  We do this sometimes. I do it sometimes.  we flow.  but if we look to the light it always mangages to return.  Returning again. all the time for everybody. No matter how chaotic it all seems to become.

I have no point except I am point.  I can name if I want and so can you.  or you can let it go do what it wants to do.  which is figure things out.  which is good.  a question keeps it going?  Like why this? and that?  and then curiousity.  Curiousity is important.  You are important.  to become curious about you.  You are wondering why you are believing in this thing or no thing you are.  You are part of the higher power.  You are the higher power?  aha.  You thins this is the is.  this is mind thing beyond mind thing. out one box out of another. relax who you are.  Are you relax.  and just say perfect.  Feel perfect don’t aware. feel what it is you want to feel or feel how you control what you feel.  Find out where you are in charge.  find out balance with in no with out.

a lie can become the truth.  that is scary.  the scary truth. that a lye becomes the truth until it is really true.  What if love is a lie?  and believe this. then I don’t feel love.  Love is lye.  so I feel no love.  No more love because it doesn’t exist.  It is not the highest power.  This is the truth because I created it.  But then something inside of me tells me that I don’t want to believe  tthatl.  I want to feels something good.  I know there is good.  I know that there is a way to connect to the thing. by observing with in.  It takes work I’ve been growing more or less.  this humbleness this compassion.  This thing this tiny light.  I’ve talking to it.  because it feedbacks.  It’s my guide. this body is my light.  or you know. this is my guide I’m talking to it now and it helps me adjust and tells me what to do.  First I ask what do I want to do?  I am doing it .  I want to street perform.  and have fun.  and make people laugh.  It is simmple because I love making people laugh.  I love making fun of my self. so people can have a good fashion gut laugh.  This is something cool and connecting to me. Laughing is important. and its fun when its real.  It’s reall when I’m looking for it.  I see laughter already.  I want to envision it happening a lot in my life.  Leading me to one adventure and another.  I’m young at heart and ready for an adventure.  A growing up experience.  My experieence that already started.  But faster and more alive.  I look for it and it will find me.  and I will find it .  We bounce off one anohter.

everything is figured out within.  It is important to learn.  your viewing machine.  to boost its awareness.  that’s why they say journal writing is important.  Journaling what from within.  Journaling by finding out myself.  that’s what I’ve always been doing.  I want to find myself through a street performing clown the man in the whited dress.  It’s something I created over time with myself.  The white dress is funny and romantic.  the white dress.  can be accesorized.  life is awesome.  Life is giving everything now .  Life does its best.  We do our best.  We are also being guided too.  feedback machine always.  by simplifying feed back machine they say like and like.  Like a mirror.  you smile you feel good it gives you goodness back.  and sad it gives sad. This creates a rule that already applies if you believe it or not. .  So your goal is to find, what you want more of inside.  to grow it.  they says this thing is love.  and they say love has no opposites.  and that it is the higher power.  but it is the thing thats hardest to do because it puts us in a vurnarable state.  giving love puts us in vunarable.  People don’t like feeling embarrassed even though its no big deal in the long run.  You see and you are creating.  Your hoping that some master will out right tell you.  that master is the universe.  the universe is a feed back machine.  It does both it will tell you what your looking for. and you will tell it.  and it will meet with you in a different way.  But none the less somehow it connects. and by how sure you are with yourself.  It will connect even more.   some people do lie to themself but then some people are good at lying to themself until it is not a lie no more.

1. the law of change.

2.  the law of focus.

3.  the law of repetition.

4. the law of a higher power.  There is no higher power.  No there is a higher power.  there is a higher power.  ok there is.  It doesn’t have the same belief pattern as you.  in fact it doesn’t have a belifef pattern.  It’s pattern is different.  It somehow involves everthing.  Everything connect to one  point.  On the piece of tiny light.  everything connected to the on switch and off switch. Central dock loading system something is taking in information being recycled out again.  Is it a a cloud collector.  Or does it have more structure.  You know because you did create the solar system.  something wants to work.  ONe little dot of light.  Or one big eyeball. or a dvd player.  one point. the point is its one thing at at a time.  or time doesn’t exist so  it fades into so then its one thing all the time. i don’t doubt one thing.  All I know is I can only handle one thing at a time.  One thing at a time.  One thing it repeats. no what makes it seeem  like it repeats.  My mind.  between each block of change. things are still here.  nothing created in this world has ever dissappeared. in on form or another.  Everything is still here.  Nothing is eliminated.  It goes into a point and out of a point.   You are a point in where things appear and dissappear.  You are aware of only what you can take in now.  There are ways to make choices.  You don’t resist what you can

but so what it’s happening.  and happening clown it is, you are a clown sometimes.  remmeber the science of soemtimes and you it repeats.  what’s your tool. ?  What’s your trigger.  What’s your reliefing agent.  give to me light.

starting anything everything but yourself.  Mystery tour 27.  starting now.  First question.  What am I suppose to do?  What do you want to do?  Street performing Why?  to connect. in a wacky friendly happy way.  too make the whole world laugh. or just seven people.

the ones I don’t control but do control.  if our ideas are comeing from the universe.  and we are the changers and the creators.  I am this section of the universe I am the only section of this universe.  It’s as vast as as small as is what you want and then mostly us is what you want.  thoughts do focus you.

your now.  Is there anything to find?  are you looking?  ask yourself?  what does looking mean to you?  Loooooooooking.  could mean gazing.  Feeling out.  being.  change looking searching soften up you already do.  forget about the meaning just soften your thoughts.  Softening a process.  everytime the hard thoughts come on soften.  or remember no resistance because that coutner out s soften. soften. is ok flows down water. I can always do this.  soften the head space that won’t go away.  enjoy to surf the head space.  Meeeeeeeeeting it head on.  the deep connection beyond you continued. never ending.  Never beginning.  ask questions. remain curious.  Why ? why why?  why who what when where?  Yo yo yo you you you yoyo y ouo you yoyoyou  uou

where is my ego in this.  the ego doesn’t exist or do you create.   it .  it’s good to ask your self.  Do you create your ego?  and the answer is yes.  You believe in this existance of this ego.  well perhaps it isn’t truee.  there s that to consider like everything else.  i’m thinking most westerners believe in the ego.  I’m thinking We sometimes confuse our ego with god.  when we here god, we sometimes think of a judge.  Although we know that the things that judge are we.  if we judge some people might be above that.  But I don’t think anybody can be totally above judging, because it helps us move decisions.  judging doesnot have to be called judging.  You are constantly adjust to take in what you doing.  You are

when I’m created?  Have you asked yourself this question?  How many times?  17 times  well then I’ve got a milk shake for you.   shake a shake you butt.  like dried rice in a toy instrument.

power create us.  You see that doesn’t really matter.  Thats a silly question.    perhaps we weren’t created at all!!  It’s all in our head. that’s right nobody exists.  This is all in your head.  and then you say If this is all in my head then I’ve never been outside of my head?  and then the answer is it’s not just your head.  It’s everything.

this thing has its moments just like you and me.the higher power is the larger version of you.  You set the parameters. in the head.  You understand that it’s more then just your head.  You remember that there is something that you don’t know.

to grow this humbleness.  to forgive one self.  I am just forgiving myself. It is a processs.  It is this realization of a process.  that it is why it is important to open the mind again.  Your can design yourself with long distant points and short distant points.  you are designing the points.  You see I’m just talking to myself but through myself this my answer.  This is my god.  which or no my perspective.  this is my belief my idea.  I am hopeful for good things.  I see good things to come.  I am good things to come.  I am good good good.  To be on oneself to be at a mystery zone of life.  life is a mystery life is you love lost and beautiful world.

I have no function but to light bulb.  I am functioning like myself and on anyself I am the thing that moves.  I am the hand that taps writes, mixed nonsense meaning voices worlds can’t have thought want to be different want to show true connection to change and love.  I miss it sad unknown love love knoes know bounds.  Love Is the higher power.  LOVe is a lesson.  Love till hurts no more.  To say that is to make love a process.  It is what it is…  Love is this thing that takes time to grow.  And people are saying you can attain this.  It’s  a relief into no matter what the ideas in your head say.  Your allowed to be at peace.  Most people are saying.  It’s the human that makes the mind struggle.  its the soul its you simplify just say its you.  All that it is you in this moment.  All of your focus in this moment.  how big or narrow.  Under what perspective.  Be aware of it.  This perspective.

It’s to say that there is always something at work beyond us.  everything together has some how found a union and to know you are connecting to that union.  no matter what your doing.  That all your ideas are useless. except the connection.  What connection.  which connection?  how many connections are there?  It is not true to say all your ideas useless.  Sometimes is a key word.  you are doing what you are doing because you have made that decision.  You are not just what you are.  You are also you by decision. and then by something bigger then you too. always.  your connection to your higher self will never be taken away.  To have that confidence.  to believe there is something with you something with you seeing you nonsense.  Yes no.  there is something seeing you . but what is it?  Something knows what your doing but what is it.  Information is being sent by you no matter what.  You are doing.  This thing represents no choice.  but choice.  every time we are aware of it.  is that moment to choose.  You know your core decisions already.  when do I wake up?  When do I brush my teeth? markers.  points.  I will now read 100 pages.  Now I will go to the zoo and act like a monkey.  How did I lose myself?    When did I go wrong?  Losing self.  Aha your higherself you can never lose.  Your higher self is not in your mind. well its not just in your mind.  Your higher self has no opinions.  it is awarenesss.  Your awareness is your connection to the ………..

because I don’t know.  but I know from this moment from this I know.  I know it because I’m a foool foooooooooooool fooolish fool foolety fool fool.  But I try my best.  I do my best fooooooool best fool.  fool best best foool best  special fool I am.

The world as it is bigger, then just this vortex.  But seen through this vortex.  i’m at peace with what is.  The self an idea and now I know. iss once in a lifetime. This is your once in a life time.  THIS IS YOUR ONCE IN A LIFE TIME once in a life time.  One time to find your higher self.  it’s always there.  talking to your higher self.  You are a feed back machine.  The world looked upon mirrors is a good metaphor.  Feedback machine.  This a rule.  remember.  and theres one thing that conact be controled and there is one thing that can be controlled.  That one thing that can be controled is  the high power that is your feed back machine.  That is the idea.

Your life is your own power.  You life is your power.  YES. yes YES.  I am…….  beyond a definition.  beyond a fart.  beyond a rose petal.  Love in its dreams and wonder.  Love in its life. Love and how it repeats. and it is the game.  the higher power your precious head. the head that you love.  That head that you don’t want to suffer.  Your head doesn’t need to suffer anymore.  because now you made an agreement.  Agreements commitments with Everything.  if you know something is watching.  Something that forgives.  somthing that says go forward.  And its hard sometimes and then every once in awhile your reminded  of something good.  a smile. is nice.

But how do you think about it without thinking its a higher power?  How is this a higher power?  What makes it higher?  so maybe it’s not higher.  but it’s a power.  ok its the power of everything.  right?  That’s where my mind leads.  it goes back to everything.  and everything includes me and you and everybody else.  so if is the higher power.  I’m creating everything in me. but how?  or something inside me is always creating what I see.  The question is for me.  It asks do I want the higher power to control me ?  or do I want to control the higher power?  This is a question we ask everyday.  and then we ask.  Well how do we control the higher power?  That’s crazy!  Well first of all we have stop calling it the higher power.  Ok fine your not the higher power anymore.  Right I guess we go back to everything again.  Life Is a Big mirror.

Sometimes you have to remember everybody is just human.  She is human.  She is a human.  Triggers are different.  Our triggers are different.  Self discovery 97 .  Self discovery starts now and its inside.  and if thats the only thing I remember so be it.  We are all doing our best to find love.  BECAUSE LOVE IS THE HIGHER POWER. we are all looking to love.  because we want to feel it I want to feel it.  better then I do.  I do feel it.  but if I want love in my life .  I have to focus love in my life so what am I doing I’m seeing it in my life.  Love is in my life. that is a connection right?  If I believe love is in my life.  Yes I’m floating on my boat toot toot.  Love is on the boat.  It always is, even when I cry.  even when I’m sad.  Love helps me feel It has no opposites.  I shouldn’t get so hung up about the word.  But I want to believe.  For myself.  for everybody else.  as myself and everybody else.

It has begun at this moment.  I have entered this specific no. and tour.  This is the date and time.  ready understand.  it’s thing It wants to sing.  It gives it out on lucky charm lucky you lucky you.  You dance in the far east parade.  you are over joyed by its connection.

as time doesn’t exist as I can be this vortex.  Or as I can be a magnatic field.  Putting labels on it.  right don’t get wrapped up in the word.  Because then you might make the mistake that it is the word. Love is not love love is not love.  through me this is understood.  I am talking to myself again.  I am talking to myself through my self.  This is my self-discovery.  I am here talking to myself over and over again.

believe that forgive ness can be found inside.  blieve you can find the higher power inside. this is it.  Inside instant feedback system.  believe in the system. believe in it now. its looking at you.  it’s taking you in like everybody else.  You are one with it.  You are,  I am I am do ing it right now.  I am talking to my self again.  I am believe that everythought and energy goes out. observe each thought and energy.  observing wondering letting go.

direct connection knows where love is.  Love knows where love.  Develop it in body first.  second give it to love .  Love for love all around love. Love walk lemonade drink thirsty already lemonade drink.

sometimes. don’t give it that belief give it the belief that helps you grow.  The stepping stone of your life.  The stepping stone of your reality.  What you believe bounces over. You know this.   I already know this.  I might as well know this.  I know this now.  Now I know this.  Stepping stone of your mind.  Love out of know where.  Love

love love love love love love love but great awesome.  I’m allowed.  Love the higher power.  I guess thats what I’ll called.  It’s not a bad power.  AND THEN I’LL BElieve it forever. but because it is true.    Or so they say.  or so they say.  but it’s not about what they say.  It’s about what I say.  So I am just talking to my self.  but something is listening besides me.  I know this.  Listening because of so many things in these airs.  Sooooo many diffferent things.  NOw should I say different power.  there is a connected power   the connected power is the power were all connected to.  Our power is in the connected power.  There is our power and then the connected power.  Our power vs connected power.  is everybodies power.   Our power is the coonnneccted power.  Our power is the connected power.  Look into the connected power.  Expecially through peoples faces.    Some can do trees.

Love the higher power Love the higher power love the higher power Learn to love the higher power because the higher power will always be higher  Learn to love your higher power learn to love your higher.  the higher power Higher the power Higher it. hire it. Hire for hire Hire the power the 7 the power higher this thing called love it repeats no I re peat I repeat love repeats.  No I repeat love the higher power  there is power higher there something gluing all together.  there.  is Love has always been the higher power Or there has always been a highpower.  One with no opposites.  one with beauty.  Love needs you .  Love is the higher power and it Loves you , its like your buddy.  It wants to shower you.   It wants to mirror you.  Love the higher power.  the sacred mirror.  The biggest mirror.  The highest power the mirror reflects and repeats.  I be lieve in something out there communicating to me.  The me, the people, the cosmos.  the me the people the cosmos.  Everything.  People are like you. people are like you.  They do have another point of control.  but they are connected to the same thing you are and through that connection you deepen you connection.  Connection deepeened now.  send oult a flower.  send out love s flower in fire storms brewing inside stomach.  love sends out fire.  Love is a fire?  Love is one thing. Love s rubber ball.  Look at the moon and connect.  believe in love love again.  Love dances behind.  Who wants to prove that love is not love.  That’s not love.  You are responsible for love.  You are responsible love.  inside you is responsible love love you love you love responsible love is dancing love is dancing love is crying love is sad. Love is love love is a cartoon.  Love bounce love bounce love, because I do want to know love.  Love in my life I want to know.  Love hurts but is love and love un hurts. love itself. Love doesn’t hurt love doesn’t like or dislike love is doing what its doing love love contact through you contact always.  contact thinking through you love is here to do what it wants to do to you to you you you love is you but you is something else.  love is you higher power.  Love is nothing nothing nothing.  Let love go.  Think of something ou want.

take your time you are love, you know when to go love.  You are taking your time love everything is about love Love is everywhere .  Help me believe that love help me I pray to you let me feel love FOR the very first time.

You know it in your heart when its true you know it .  It is a thrill Love is a dandy flower LOve is real to life.  Fear is here to fear is love.  they love is not fear.  but fear dances in love.   tapp dances  tap tap tap tap Tap dance away fear.  Tap your might sword.  Is this true? Love is here no matter what?  If you believe and if you don’t believe.  You can relax because you can always count on love.  Dancing with it no matter what.  I want to believe LOVEs way.  ;I am  writing to myself.  I am listening to myself.  No body else this is my love thing.  Love thing love thing.  I want to believe Love show me love.  Universe Love BIG ASS MIRROR.  show me love.  Show it to me GOD DAMMIT it is what it is love it has no opposites Love your thang.  Whatever floats your boat. toot toot

Yes this moment now.  YES beyond definitive answer.  I way say yes because I believe in me?  I believe in the light? I believe in everything?  I believe in floaty marshmellows from outer space.  I believe in it the higher power.  I believe in all there is love. Love  I believe in love love i want to believe in it so I believe in and love has no opposites so no matter what love will love me.  it is the higher power for myself for myself and everybody else.  Love is all around.  Love is in your seeds.  Love makes everything grow. Love wants to grow inside of you.  Because it wants to be developed. I am developing love right now.  there is no way this isn’t love Love knows its being looked at Love feels good and humble and Love is real it has no opposites its reall for all of us Its real for me for me me me Love are you the higher power?  Love are you the higher poser?  Lover are you the highest potential?  YES I am ……………………..

In a billion years, nothing perfect ever again. was there an ever?  Nothing perfect clap your hands. Stamp your feet.  Feedback system.

Love doesn’t have a point. LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLas;ldkij fow ejf;ondsknas;ojf;asdno;ajdsflo; but my brain wants a point.

What am I doing wrong?  Where am I missing the point?  I know its this love thing, but where?  I guess I just have to believe.  It’s here LOVE.  the thing that glues that connects everybody together.  The light of love and all its stickiness. It’s here.  It wants to stick.  Connect and grow. connect and grow connect and grow.  I’m not missing any point I guess.  I already know what to do.  This things just takes time.  You have to let it grow. Glow.  Growing connecting.  Beautiful love.  The stillness.  the serenity.  and maybe with my first love.  and maybe when I was seven. So clean so knowing.  KNOWING

if its not yourself then what is it. Is it controlled by another force?   ask yourself this question.  Wake up to the question you want to ask.  You are in the center of it all you are reall you are imporant no body else needs not to give you THIS POWER you have access fully to it .  Just open up to it and doors all over the place.  They never end and neither do you.

REMEMBER THE CORE CORE CORE it was you.  You along.  it was you.   You are the core.  you center thing.  You were the thing yellow chicken thing.  Thats you…  Ha ha Ha ha ha I like chicken SOMETIMES and then deep breath love LOVE love FULL MOONS

and you just want to have fun well start dancing.  Life is plentiful and you know why not????  This is your time time time “Good” glass of lemonade.

Chicken sandwich sacrifice tasty chicken salty crust.  I ate it because it was good.   I t  was si mple chicken.  And the gurus say simple simple simple simple slimple Pimple.

We cakn all do to what the balance is to them ind now I won’t rewind I’ll be something I want to be this what I want to be3 I’ll fly to foreign lands sometimes.   All day and then I will talk to you you you Lets walk lets walk lets walk again.  Now we can say ha ha hay hay nothing is what you want it to be what do you want it to be?  confused?  What do you want it to be?

This is real the moment I decide my chattering is something to me I work with it is in my head so I work with and I agree I will talk to me and myself I am real I am love love love lvoe so are you have an apple I love apples and octupuses  and astronauts and I walk with my mind clouded sometimes because I know that at the heart of it it is real what ever it is it is  it is what I think what  knows what and live dolphins.

The key to life is a backwards person who doesn’t think of anything because he didn’t even want to think.  With and with out you laugh ha ha hah ah

IN THIS moment you have begun the dance to your inner core and you believe this because you want to feel your heart.   Your tired of not feeling your heart.  SO YOU DECIDED I WANT TO FEEL MY HEART.  So you know you just feel it.   So for instance March 7th is my day to feel my heart.  The warm blood. Why not?  Feel it it’s real. Blood is real. and you know you got to get it going in the morning and through the day and night. So This is it.  this is it.

Hi Matt.  Hi folks.  I feel that not many if any read my blog entries.  So I feel free to write what I want.  This is my journal entry.  It is important to me.  It’ll help me see the world for what it is.  Don’t take it personally.  Don’t or do.  I can’t control how you think feel.  must people read two sentences judge.  or none judge.  I’m trying to eliminate the judge in myself.  In a way I’m writing to no body but myself.  Really.  And then I have this hint feeling that somebody is actually reading this and judging me.  That’s the illusion of life.  we think that we’re being judged 24/7 when really if we think that.  We’re the ones judging ourself 24/7.  Ok I’m the man in white dress.  and I want to revolutionalize my life by giving love.  Everyday I try my best.  I have failed sometimes I have succeeded sometimes.  I’m only human.  as human as they get.  So I’m doing an experiment with my life again.   People will look at me and walk past me on the street and probably not care  because they have money issues which are important for survival.  So I don’t blame them.  Blame is probably the wrong word.  I know that I shouldn’t feel guilty either.  Some people I make mad. But some of those dreamers I make happy.  So I do make people happy.  My goal is to help happen whats already probably hopefully going to happen soon anyway.  The reawakening of LOVE without drugs.  back in the 60s acid created the summer of love.  but the summer love still created amazing things.  And life is like Pendulum.  It comes back and forth.  and so LOVE COMES back.  and forth.  lower and higher.  through you and with out you.  Love is weak in NY. Look at my face.  Look at a lot of peoples faces.  Radioactive computer screens have sucked out the life a little.  There’s no love coming from a computer screen.  Too me it’s also the reawakening of the inner child, the soul, the spirit.  beyond wrong and right beyond ideas.  and through feeling and connecting.  I miss the point a lot.  But I don’t feel bad anymore because I see people in the streets who are way more gone then me.  Severly stuck in there head, ready to explode.  We all give off energy to one another.  It’s unavoidable.  But what you and I and everybody else can do is try to give the best love we know how without fruition.  Actually you can always give yourself fruition, yoiu do it by lightened up yourself.  patting your own back.  We are in danger when wee look for someone else to give us approval.  We are in danger of losing ourself.  You don’t need approval from the outside world.  You need approval from yourself.  Remember your not strange.  Your only human. everyone has their own set strange attachments.  I’m not strange.  or wierd, but its funny people can make you feel odd if you let them or if there is enough of them vs. only you.    We do have powers, but more so in groups then individually.  One day will all lighten up first on ourself and then the world.  Deep inside we’re all a foolish funny light hearted soft warm clown we can all laugh at.  We do wacky things, have wacky eccentricities, and the truth is you’ll always be confused or not.  because your mind wants one answer. and only you can give yourself that answer.  Most people say LOVE.  So why not love.  BElieve in love.  In vent your own love.  Things will always be unfair, but they don’t have to be inside your head.  YOU CAN ALWAYS FROM THIS MOMENT ON RATIONALIZE IT and feel LOVE.   and lighten up to its light.  Connecting with others is harder when the light is irritated inside. so one step at a time.   ONE leg of truth at a time. my first goal is work on my temple.  first health routine.  most important.  More important then making another film.

If love had anything to do with growing rotten carrots.  YOU CAN’T TRUST IT!!!

that’s right brother.  and sister.  you be grand now.  I understand now.  you are who you want to be.  And that’s the only truth.  I BELIEVE THAT!!!!!!!!!   BELIEVE THAT!!!!!!!!! it’s easy.

I wish I understand this love thing.  the no. 7 might have all the answers.  Does any one of you feel this way too?  I ask you because I love  you.  You do have soft cheeks.  I miss them already. You are a creature of the wind.

girls are like lasers sometimes.  I like the greeen ones. or the hazel.  They have all the magical story ideas.  of dancing people and having fun. again young again. On a space ship to the closest fantasy land.  Green pine trees. and fantasy land combined.  plus a jungle Gym.  How many people?  777

I have to go to the doctor.  Only the doctor can love me for who I am.  Right?  I don’t think the doctor cares.  I am sad and want to cry.  What KIND OF WORLD IS THIS WHEN YOUR DOCTOR plays TRicks!!!!!!!!!

A sofa I have filled with spikes.  watch out it might cut ya.  but look I’m only using my imagination.  that didn’t really happen.  What really happend was Love Changed it into to soft flowers of fluff.  fluff flart.

It had three pears.  Eat was full.  I diddn’t want to eat bread.  It would of combined to form a Glue mold and that’s not love.  Augh no, no more love for you!!!!!!!